hello hello and some more hellos...

what to say, what to do well i have nothing to say, nor do i want to share any of my true intimate thoughts, or details about my monotonous life. I guess then it is truly pointless to even be writing in a journal, but i guess it makes me feel some sort of security knowing that someone or maybe even know one with spend the time reading thoughts that really don't mean anything to me. I'm so senselessly senseless...i wonder if i will go completely insane one day. I see that happening in the future, hopefully the distant future, because i have some life to live before my mind starts to wander and leave all reality. Maybe i'm in the process of it as i type this, wouldn't that be frightening. Waking up and knowing that you're insane, but i guess you really wouldn't know, and everything would seem quite normal to you, but to others you would be completely insane. I wonder how exactly someone would go about diagnosing an insane person. Maybe we the so-called normal people are the ones who are really insane, and the insane people just see the world for what it really is. Ok, so now maybe i have even confused myself....see the first sign of going insane.
i always wondered about those people who come back from the dead. The ones that have to be revived from the beyond. I wonder what they see, or if they even see anything. I wouldn't mind talking to someone who went through something like that. I bet they could give you a lot of insight about all the crazy shit in the after life, or maybe they really don't see anything. I mean God probably knows they aren't going to die so why would he share all that secrets of life after death with someone who is going to live. I guess it woul sort of ruin the greatest mystery known to man. I mostly got this idea from a movie i saw a while back the sci-fi network. It's called Flatliners i think, and Julia Roberts and Kevin Bacon are in it. It's about these med-students that do experiments on each other. They inject something in your system which causes you to die, and then they revive the person and talk about what they saw, but then the images start to haun them and all that bologna.
i wonder what it would be like to live with the dinosaurs,i mean if they hadn't been extinct would there even be a human race? i think it would be pretty cool seeing a Tyrannosaurus walking down the streets, well only if it was friendly. I wonder if we could keep the little ones as pets, i think that would be pretty neat. Although i doubt it would come down to that, the way our consumer driven world is run we would probably be eating the little suckers. Peta would have a field day with that. I can see it now bbq dino flesh, or t-rex skinned boots. Poor dinosaurs maybe it is better that they are extinct.